Am I a secretary?

Why do I have to deal with all this shit? What's my share of work? I have to make doctor appointments and negotiate everything. I felt like I am a secretary handling the details and making phone calls. Will this ever change? It's really annoying that she can't take care of her own business. I will explode one day. Sigh.

Do I fit?

It seems to me that I have the same question every couple weeks: "do I really fit in a corporate world?" or "do I really fit into a manager role?" I think my desire is to build a great product and lead product directions. I don't want non-sense politic bullshit. Though I managed to convince myself that things such as
1. dealing with jerk like Kenneth
2. dealing with Mr. Negativity like Jeff
3. other....

I think I need to grow myself to overcome these negative thoughts so I can advance into next stage. Probably helpful at home as well.

Already 2012

Stumbled upon this blog (?!) and realized that I myself created this hate-mail site for myself 2 years ago. Funny is that I only posted twice. I guess I was happy after that? I don't think that's possible. In many ways, I am still in the same position as 2 years ago. I made some progress tho: new house, new position (sucks more?), going to become a landlord soon..... Any ways, maybe this is a good place to keep myself sane. I should keep on writing to myself.

Welcome back, ugly me.