Private Complaints Created

2010 just started. Today is the first working day of 2010. I just realized one thing: my spirit is moving in the opposite direction with the rest of world. My emotion is greatly affected by the cheerfulness of the world. I don't feel happiness when decorating the Christmas tree; when receiving Christmas presents; when the crystal ball falling in the Time Square.

Why? Why am I such a freak? anti-social? or whatever I am? I don't know. Maybe it's a self-protecting mechanism. Just don't want to go-with-the-flow with the world.

Just when I am writing this post, I am actually in a conference call with co-workers from UK. They just drive me crazy. We spent hours just to argue the requirements document is not accurate and who is to blame. I am just tired of talking about this crap. You can't blame me for YOU not reading the document that I put out months ago. That is just ridiculous.

I need a place to blow-off-the-steam, per say. I have FB, Plurk, tweeter, and 2 blogs where I should be able to express my frustration and anger towards the world. However, I guess I am too chicken to let people that I am mad at know about my feelings. I don't want to let my coworkers know that I am sick of my job; I don't want to let my wife know that I hate living with her; I don't want to let people know that I want to kill myself....

All that thoughts lead to here: my private complaints. All my negative thoughts should come here and be buried here. So long, the ugly me.